date: Friday, February 11, 2005 @ 10:57 pm
title: Day 11: Lunar New Year 3rd Day..
My hair still rather short. Trimmed.
Tears flow down my cheeks as I look at the mirror every morning since Day 3.
I finally cut my miserable hair and it looks normal. Long Live EC house, down with bowl cutting.
Money comes and goes. Otherwise the economy will have irrational consumers like me ( hey.. I did listen to the econs lectures.) saving for rainy day which seems insignificant, compared to the abundance provided and will be provided by my Papa up above the clouds. Tap from all His provisions.. Yeeha!
The V day..
It's coming soon. And I have a piece of good news: I'm loaded big time.
Lunar New Year 3rd day and I can feel that burden to spend all what I have.
However, I will reap what I sow.. so 10% goes to church.
Den the rest... either into the savings account to hatch interest 'eggs'
Or it flows into the sea of markets where I will be purchasing my desirable goods with both my willingness and ability to do so.. ( that's the definition of 'Demand')
Of all my schooling life.. now is the one that I treasure the most. Every single minute and second, every person and thing.. I love my friends and buddies. I'm so in love with my Papa for what He promised to deliver if I seek first His kingdom and Righteousness..
Thus.. on V day: No girl. No guy. No romantic candlelight dinner for 2. No 'will-you-marry-me' proposal. Nothing for me.
I will be setting aside this day for everyone.. and especially my Heavenly Papa.
I hate to say. But sometimes.. I think that what I blog. No one reads... Sigh.
Shame on me!!
Let me tell u a story now..
Boy A likes Girl A, but Girl A doesn't know.
To save his face, Boy A says that Girl A is his Best friend.
Girl A believed him.
Den now, Girl A's best friend, Girl B was intro to Boy A.
Sadly, Girl B likes Boy A. And Boy A knows.
So Boy A public announced to Girl B that she's best friend as well.Same as Girl A.
Stupid Boy A.
And Boy A is not me. Ha!
End of story. Sad right?
Now.. I'm single and not available. Not yet.
Not attainable and not desirable.. (so econs: PPCurve)
Thou my heart desires for love, but my emotions are not ready to accept another person, other than my Heavenly Papa.. Unless He allows. Different case den.
In SRJC. I met my sort-of-ideal-future-spouse-that-I-once-asked-for 'eye candy' den oblivously I was deeply wrong. She just makes my day worses.. not seeing her makes my day lighter, seeing her.. deadmeat!!
Sort-of-Ideal-Future-Spouse:
Super duper sassy.
Extremely violence-orientated.
Black belt in TKD.
PMS will cause the gates of hell to open.
Now-my-Ideal-Spouse:
Loving toward Heavenly Papa.
Always showing true colours.
Kick-ass.
Happening.
Loud.
Sporty sometimes.
Just so expressive.
Just-do-it attitude.
Part of Proverbs 31. Ha!
Amen!!
Everyday.. when I saw my Now-my-Ideal-Spouse. I just so will smile alot. She just brighten up my day, from day to night. Even before I sleep and after wake up, I pray that time will test my heart for her, that now isn't the time for commitment. I trust in God that she..
One day will be mine. Or some other that I might come across.. But now, she's constantly in my daily prayer list. Ha!
Life...
One of the most awesome gift i had in SRJC..
was to meet BERrrr....
I couldn't give thanks to her for her, that her presence just so 'jiao'.
I knew her arrival.. I just knew it.
Last time.. When I was still a full-pledged marist. I was deeply confused by the history of the marist-cedarian discontentment towards each other. My seniors were so anti-cedarians when many had girlfriends from there.. Irony isn't it? I remember questioning everyone and anyone abt the detestment but no answer could fulfill my doubt.. but with 'o' levels incoming, The answer was never found, until the day I 'swear' to the gay oath ( or was there one?).
But BERrrr was the key to the door of enlightenment..
There was nothing, else more than just the unhappy incidents on the bus.. Marist's OB and dripping sweat.. lame lor for me.
She was also the bridge of all the cedarians i met everyday and i truely enjoy their presence.. I didn't know that idling around the school and chatting was so much fun and enjoyment..
I didn't know things that circulate abt Marist, that my elder sister ( my real one. Who was also a cedarian) didn't disclose to me..
And I helped her to create her blog, just. >.<
I'm truely willing to do anything for her for the everything she has done..
Ha! I just couldn't thank her enough.
And today.. I just want to thank you and the rest.
"Thank you and to all the rest as well.
Ber: er.. thanks for everything from the start until now. Everything.
(Mei)WeiFen: thanks for all the patience u had for my goldfish memory. And shouting my name across the hallway. So crystal clear.
Nadia: all the secrets you shared with an ex-marist: e.g LG? Ha!
Caroline: for starting hitting me now.. not as bad as Iyzan.
Iyzan: the care and concern for my 'unusual' day. Ha! and not hitting me, for now. "
And now..
if my classmates see this. They will demand a thank-you speech as well.
But not today.Ha!
My vision is getting so blurrr..
